I can't sleep.
there's an uncomfortable feeling in my chest
it curls around my heart
holding it captive
I'm scared.
that he'll leave
again
for the last time
but I won't show it.
I'll smile for you.
laugh for you.
love for you.
but I'll never cry for you.
my pain is irrelevant.
is it a bad thing that someone can make you so happy?
is it even worse that someone can make you so sad?
I'm not good enough for you.
I'm not good enough for anyone.
why did I leap into this rabbit hole
knowing that I'd be falling forever?
this post is a mess.
I'm a mess.
goodnight.
